16 Feb 2007 Fri

woah so fast and it is already feb '07! well, today class had conflict with Mrs Sundar during her emaths period over the case on where to do Ex3a Qn 3...sounds weird right? mrs sundar, wanted us to do in the Exrcise bk 2 but do the vectors on a graph paper and paste it in but the class wanted to do it in the graph book...so some started showing attitudes and also mrs sundar starting saying we were so inflexible! but i dont mind where it is done...but it is very hard and confusing! hate it!

anyway, in class i am becoming a loner and dislikes some people...it is like Shadi, Bai Sheng, Nicholas and Bing Yu is starting to show me attitudes and insults! I dont realli talk much to them but will explain everyone of them in detail. For Shadi and Nicholas, i already hate them and they hate me...but they keep on insulting me and throwing defamities at me behind my back...not knowing that I KNOW WHAT THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT...for Bai Sheng, we used to be good friends when i was in band...but after quiting, the whole band and he started giving me cold shoulder even when i still treat them as friends! where is the justice?! and the thing is that when BS asks a question, i answer him but he pretends i am invisible and continues asking the question to get the same answer from another person! what a childish act! Bing Yu, who was once a friend on mine have now started to insult me and hurdle names at me...think he has been brain-washed by Shadi and gang since they sit so close to each other...

anyway, i dont really bother much about that issue as they are nothing in my sight and i dont give a hoot about their very existance...it is just a parasite in the midst of intelligent people...in which they would get the same treatment of what they are giving others now, later in life and it would be worser...that is retribution for them! but the thing is that i am becoming more of a loner and that i mix lesser with the group i used to hang out with...my close friends that i can say would be xiao qian's group...no one else have ever treated me better than how XQ's group treated me...they are the best...but of all, Samuel is still my best friend and i am very grateful to have him as a best friend...

lately i have experienced some discomforts in my intestinal and stomach area...i would get a very sharp pain lasting for a long time and then it disappears...then i comes back again some time later...and it has been going on for some time but i have told no one about this to prevent people from worrying...it is best not to say so as to let them enjoy their lives and worry about themselves...but the thing you may be thinking is why post it here when i dont wanna tell anyone...the reason is simple...cause no one reads this blog and that i am not popular with everyone so no one would look out for anything i do...

another issue i want to say is that i am very grateful for whatever i have now with me and that i also do know that there are somethings that i would like but am unable to get it...but at least i am contented with whatver i have...i do not know when i would leave this world or when the people i teasure most would leave me...but the thing is that i enjoy everyday as it is another day i am blessed to enjoy whatever i have and the people i treasure as well as the people around me...it doesnt matter whether they may not like me but i do hope to forgive everyone and live a good life such that i would be able to leave this world with a clear conscience...

ok that was a bit to dramatic...but this weekend there is a lot of homework cause of the Chinese New Year break...ok i have to get ready to leave now...bye bye everyone and WISHING EVERYONE A HAPPY AND PROSPEROUS CHINESE NEW YEAR 2007! GONG XI FA CHAI! and for the students, XUE YE JIN BU!

signing off...